OK so now I am actually fifty! 50! It really makes me smile and almost laugh out loud when I say it. It feels a little bit ridiculous because hand on heart, I don’t feel it in the slightest. I think it’s really funny!
I’m feeling ok about it, in fact I feel great about it now I’ve had the actual birthday. If you read my post How to deal with a milestone birthday – you will know that I had a bit of a meltdown about it. Even though I was having a few silly apprehensive thoughts, when it came to the evening before I just thought “bring it on!” And surprisingly I was then looking forward to it.
On the morning of my birthday I actually felt really happy and it felt like it was my birthday. You know sometimes as an adult, your birthday doesn’t always feel like a special day – or is it just me? When you’re a kid you look forward to your birthday for ages and it’s the be all and end all but I think the novelty wears off a bit as you grow up. I’m not sure what age things change. (I was so lucky to have my birthday on a Saturday this year too!)
So I spent the day feeling happy 😃 relaxed and thankful. In the evening we went out as a family and apart from them deciding to bring a cake out and sing 🎵 Happy Birthday (my worst cringy nightmare for a birthday) I had a nice evening – AND I didn’t even get tempted to drink wine!! I had sparkling water – in a wine glass, so that was an achievement in itself.
So what does it feel like to be 50? Err it feels exactly the same as when I was 49.
In fact, in my head I still feel about 25. Although my life is so much easier than when I was 25.
I’m fortunate that I’m lucky enough to live in a nice house now, I was officially homeless at 25 with two very young children. (I did managed to get housed in a mobile home for a few months so I know not as unfortunate as some, but it wasn’t the life I had planned for my children.) Another improvement is that I have learnt a lot of lessons about people along the way so am strong enough to know that if someone messes me around they are not worth having in my life.
I feel a bit more confident about myself because hey I’m fifty 😂 so I’m allowed to have laughter and stress lines and a sagging jaw-line!! For the first time in my life I’ve changed my hair so I don’t have a heavy fringe and if people stare at me because of my strawberry naevus then that is their problem not mine. Actually I do mind and I don’t like people staring at me, but at last I am beginning to feel a tiny bit more confident about it.
I feel so thankful that, touch wood, I have never had any health scares that haven’t been able to be sorted. Obviously like most people my life hasn’t been plain sailing and I have dealt with a lot of crap, but for now at least, things seem to be ok.
I feel like I have a bit of ambition for the first time in my life but I don’t know if that is because I’ve stopped drinking or because of my age. I know I’m not that great at writing but I have discovered that I really love writing my thoughts down and everything associated with that. I would love love love to work for a magazine or some related business. Whether that is just a dream or whether one day it might happen I don’t know but hey it feels good for me to dream anyway.
This post is completely rambled as I have just written how I am feeling so I might just post without checking and see if anyone likes it.
I could write so much more about this and maybe I will in a few weeks time but for now though to summarise – being 50 feels amazing! 😊
Being fifty sure beats the alternative of not getting this far lol
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I know doesn’t it!! That’s exactly how I feel 😊
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Happy 50TH! You are still very pretty! 🎊👏🎉
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Aww that is so lovely of you to say so, thank you so much! (snap chat filters do help a bit in my blog photo though 😋)
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Hahaha. It’s too cute. It suits you well. 😍
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😍 that’s so nice of you! I’ve tried to look at your blog but the link you gave me isn’t working properly for some reason I’ll have another try tomorrow 🙂
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Happy birthday!! You do look mah-velous, dahling. In America, we get a big welcome from AARP. Anything like that in the UK?
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Hi thanks Eilene! 😊 no I don’t think we do, well there is age UK and Saga but they are just for retired people I think! Got years to go before then 😀
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No way you are 50! You look amazing!! more like 30 hunni 😘😉 xxx
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💕 thanks Sam you are sooo lovely! 🤗😘
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It”s never too late to dream again. I”m in my 40s and at first I was hesistant to start blogging. I’m glad I did😊 I love your posts – leep writing!
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Thanks Fritzie 😊 that’s so nice of you to say! I wasn’t confident about starting a blog but I am so glad I did, I’ve met so many lovely people. You look young for your age! 😊
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A very happy birthday dear 😁🎇🎉
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Thank you! It was a lovely day 😊
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Belated birthday greetings. Life has been much more interesting for me after 50. Enjoy.
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Thank you so much! I’m glad your life has been better since hitting 50! It’s weird but in a way it feels like a new chapter 😃
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Aww, happy birthday, lovely! I can definitely echo the sentiments of others – you do not look 50 at all. I hope I look as fantastic at 50.
Really enjoyed reading this post 😀
Ruth | http://www.ruthinrevolt.com
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Aww Ruth thank you! You are so kind 💕😃
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Happy Birthday Fiona. Lovely written piece here. You’re story is humbling. Fantastic 50s! Ivan
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Thank you Ivan! 😊
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This post make me smile! I love your Zest for life, I love the way you’ve over come from bein homeless with kids to having a home and being confident in the woman you are. That’s beautiful. I’m 33 and I can’t wait to be 50. I can’t wait to see where I am and where life has taken me. I’m so glad I read this blog. Great post.
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💕Aww thank you so much! Your comments really mean a lot to me. I like that you understand what I was trying to get across 🙂 Don’t wish your life to happen too quickly, it goes quick enough. Honestly enjoy being 33 you look great btw 😀
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